Today is the best day ever...... October 09 2013, 2 Comments

As I sit early morning in my kitchen beginning the day, I sit with such warmth and fullness acknowledging all the blessings that I have. I sit doing FB postings about all the teaching opportunities that are coming forth, understanding that this is truly the work of the divine, being in the place of serving others and teaching from the heart are all that I need today. I have been so blessed to be able to be here during these amazing times of global and personal transformation, understanding what it means to be in the present, to be open to the present, not shut down because my addictions are running my life. I sit in wonderment sometime as to how am I still here, what is the purpose of this life, when so many before me have left this earth plane, through addiction and disease. There truly is a larger purpose, I need to remember that I am not running the show, that I must remain teachable and open to the real information, the authentic voice, god speaking to me, not at me. On my birthday I reflected on how my beloved Glenn Densberger 30 years ago had left this plane, the funeral was held on my birthday, wanting to make sure I always remembered him, I do, I miss him, I miss the laughing, I miss the connectedness of the heart, the insanity of our lives as we plowed through the crazy times of being gay and coming out in the 70's,  I wish he was here with me to remember the stories, the 10 years that we shared taking on everyday as if it where the first, to explore each other and the world with the excitement and openness of young children, playing freely and without caution, eyes wide open, fearlessly taking on every moment, experiencing nothing but love, I miss you my dear one, there will never be another, I have tried over and over again and no one can ever replace you in my heart, as I know you watch over me, because if you weren't watching over me, I am not quite sure where I would be today, I acknowledge my love for you, for ever and ever.........